Long time no see

Two months.  Where have I been?  Not to San Jose, that's for sure.
Things are tough.  I won't talk about that here at the moment.  I'm tired, struggling, and looking for a way through.

Some words have helped.   

* Don't let fear drive out love.  I woke up with that in my mind and on my lips  one morning last week.  I know this verse, in part at least: "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."  I John 4:18.  But the way it was expressed in my sleeping and waking speaks to me in the current situation.

* I have started reading, again, Henri Nouwen's 'Turn My Mourning into Dancing'.  I read a sentence last night that spoke to me, when Henri talks about the Beatitudes, and blessed are those who mourn.  Henri writes that mourning is facing the pain in the presence of someone who heals (paraphrased).

And here, something beautiful, and tasty.  A recent discovery - yummy pizza without cheese. I've never liked pizza because I don't like melted cheese.  Really dislike it,.  Makes me sick.  Now I'm almost vegan in my diet, this is a revelation.  It's also great comfort food.

It's called The Fuss.  Name was a joint effort - me and one of the pizza guys. 

Ingredients:  tomato paste, garlic (lots), rosemary, pumpkin, potato, mushroom, rocket on top when it comes out of the oven.  This pic is sans rocket. We nearly forgot it.

Though the pizza guys object to pizza without cheese, they think the name is so good, it may just go on the next print of the menu.  For now, it's scribbled on a piece of paper and stuck to the side of the coffee machine. In pizza terms, I've nearly made it.